Kazn Pronounced Kay-Zen
I am my own truth.
A truth that is learned everyday.
Truth that is free.
K83=> K+8(ate)+3(E) => Kate-E = Katie
It’s 4:44 AM. I was sleepn.
I hurd a breath. I woke suddenly. I checked my floor.
Thought it may have been my guest but no one’s in my room.
Maybe….nvm…. my mind conjures these noises unconsciously.
My other fon just started vibratin. Weird coincidence….it’s a text.
I’ll check all of them in the morning.
I know … it’s…or… nvm…
You’ll thank me later.
Patient, only a week + 3 days left.
It’s done… it’s over… I did the deed.
I watched you cry…I hurt inside…but I have to leave.
What happened ?
It felt like a crowded room, but it was only filled with few,
My closest friends, my words that bent, to say everything to you.
These pauses…ur hands gripping mine,
their faces watching ours…emotions intertwined,
ripping through me and into ur eyes, as an end is realized.
My body rejecting each syllable that I practiced, Kuz u wouldn’t have it,
I was ready for a stoic reaction, but we can never get what we want.
But so much has happened, so now our nerves start to haunt.
I can’t be urs when u have sum1, but that was something I wasn’t told.
It wouldn’t have gone this far, if I would have known.
But I can’t blame you…but when you told me, I knew it was done,
Because my conscience won’t let me hurt anyone.
I watched. I saw it all. The pain in A, when I stood up.
The pain, A, feels, I know that feeling is too much.
A, still accepted u when they found out.
but I can’t accept A, that’s y I have to end it now.
The next moring the engines sound,
Movement in this airport and all around,
I held you in my arms for one last time,
I kissed your forehead
u wrapped urself around me,
We kissed one last time,
“Don’t leave me…Kat plzzz.”
The shrill of your voice, echoes, on repeat in my mind,
A whimper, that glimmer, in your tears.
My hand gripping urs but pulling away.
Whispers of “sorry,” like trickling needles..
It’s done…it’s over…I did the deed.
I watched you cry…we hurt inside…
You watched me leave.